Can you live as
a woman, can you be a woman, every day for the rest of your life, with
the past as a male and without sexual surgery (SRS)? I'm doing it every day.
Read my story, look at the pictures and find out how the person I never dared
to dream of, became reality. How a second life turned into success. The highs,
the lows, the frustrations, pains and disappointments. The pitfalls, the
learning, the joys and the rewards of womanhood.
This page is dedicated
to all those, who believe beeing a woman is wonderful, love and sex
is wonderful and SRS something we don't need!
I'm not really sure why I publish these pages. Why
this sudden compulsion to write and present all these pictures ? I admit that for some years I thought about
writing of my past, but never did I
think it would be today.
So, why did I get involved? Basically it was
all an accident. What I really had in mind, was to publish a homepage about my art
work and my life as an artist (which I did, see www.skulpture.ch ). Then one day out of
curiosity I entered “Transgender” into one of the search engines. I was amazed
and overwhelmed at the vast amount of pages this topic brought forth.
Years back when I started
my first adventures as a
woman, this was all different. I could hardly find a friend or sister who
shared my compulsion. I knew there must be others like me, but I did not know
how to find them. Finally I placed an ad in my local newspaper. Two papers
refused my add. The word “Transvestite” was sexually too ambiguous and
unacceptable. I changed the wording and soon afterwards I found a first handful
of people like me. That’s how Femme Travestie (Today Femme Persona ) the first
and still only organization for Transvestites in Switzerland was born.
And now suddenly this mass of information. I am
overwhelmed by all these pages from transgenderd people. I am amazed, how in a few years so many sisters have come
out of the bushes to present their stories.
But why am I doing it. I am past the stage, where you
have this compulsive urge to talk about my so called “hobby”, to anybody
willing to listen; and to convince the world how real, how good-looking and
passable a woman you are. As a matter of fact it is years since anybody asked
me about my past, or that I volunteered to talk about it. My new life has
become so natural, that the past is almost totally forgotten. Almost, but most
likely not totally. There still must be some things of my past, that I have not
yet completely digested. Some pain may still be buried and some pride in what I
have done and accomplished is still waiting to be acknowledged.
So in the end I am doing it for myself.
myself of the last painful memories of times gone by. I cant even say I’m doing
it for all those struggling to find there new way to a feminine self, because thank God, you are
not alone anymore the way I was, when my story started. There are plenty of
sisters and institutions to give you advise and support.
Except maybe for one thing; the story about SRS. The
fact that I did it all without SRS and that I’m so happy about it. That you can
be a woman and live as a woman without sexual surgery.
I offer my new
life, as proof in text and pictures and if this fact, prevents one doubting soul, not to make
this final and irreversible step, then I think my story and my effort in
publishing it, was worthwhile.
So here it is. My story in text and pictures. I have
not yet a concept on how to organize it all. I think I will start with bit and
pieces as they come to my mind. If you have questions or if you find there was
a topic which I abbreviated too much (If anybody reads it at all !!) please let
In telling my story I will try to write about things which either, uniquely
add to my feelings why I am, what I am, or are unique and interesting as to how
I think about the topic; or because it is just plain interesting reading. I
have read so many life stories about TV’s and TS’s that I will do my best not
to bore the readers with facts and stories he has experienced himself and/or
has read over and over again
A short biography.
Realy just the highligts!
Jacqueline the person.
I think the best article, that was ever written about me.
Bits and pieces.
(With a few pictures) A collection of small paragraphs. Insights,
questions, adventures, stories and more! ( I will try to add to it as
time goes by)
Index to my picture gallery.
I tried to present only the best pictures without useless repetions of
the same poses. Some glamour, but mostly shots out of my daily life.
Is there an alternative to SRS?
A lecture I held at FemmePersona the Swiss Organisation for TS/TV/TG's
following Logos are all Links TS/TV friendly pages. Please visit
them. For more detailed info on these pages and some more goto Awards
and Links page.